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this is my vent page where i post umm VENTS! tw might be too edgey or wanting to die TOOOo much so just be warned i guess

June 11th 2026 ⚠ .𖥔݁ ˖

idk it's just my period causing my emotions to be so damn wonky but the feeling of living life is just overwhelming lately. i don't know what im doing wrong, i don't know if im just stuck or if i'm doomed. i think i have a good plan for the future but it really only works out of the other parties involved are cooperative or not, and if they aren't then i have NOTHING else to fall back on. i could continue with the same goals i've had since highschool but those seem dumb now. i'm not interested in psych as much, i don't want to work healthcare anymore. i really think that if i had a partner, someone to call my LOVE and actually have it be safe and pure and mutual, then MAYBE just MAYBEEEE i could figure out what to do with myself. but that sounds so stupid....NEEDING another human being in order to function for yourself. that sounds so toxic or cringe. im not trying to be cringe, i just really think if i had that loving emotional support system, i could do anything i set my mind to. and its so hard to keep going without that support. i tell myself i don't need someone to just be there, i can support myself and do my own things but its just EASIER if i have someone i can cling to, or someone i can vent to and be told sweet things to calm me down and actually mean it, actually saying it with love, yanno? my head hurts now...

June 4th 2026 ⚠ .𖥔݁ ˖

isn't it kinda frustrating how nothing really changes? i mean you can grow up, you can eat different, you can talk to different people but deep down you'll always be the same. and that saying of "people don't change" im kinda starting to believe it more and more but i dont WANT to, i've studied psychology for like 5 years and yet i still find myself falling into the same traps and same routines that i would constantly tell people to AVOID. idk im sick of it all and hopefully i can avoid people all together and just stay on my cute little website i made.

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