kinoko's blog
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this is my vent page where i post umm VENTS! tw might be too edgey or wanting to die TOOOo much so just be warned i guess
July 1st 2026 ⚠
EEEEKK its almost my birthday soon O_O and i am so freaking nervous. i never like my birthday nor the attention that comes with it, mostly with my family i guess. but jeezus christ i fee like i'll be extra emotional cuz im literally getting older and its not like "ohhh ur still young!" NO LIKE IM GONNA BE A ACTUAL ADULT SOON AND WHTFFF ((not a minor just btw)) but i still feel fairly immature or young at heart as they say, which i guess is good? i just don't have the pressure in my life to like do super adulty things yk? which im kinda glad for, i get to make cute websites and play overwatch all day :D hopefully will have cool pics 2 post on my other blog tab x.x til then fellow chuds!!!
June 14th 2026 ⚠
after 2 (almost 3) painstakingly ANNOYINGGGGG days of some bs, i can finally relax knowing that everything will be okay. it just sucks that when ur genuienly trying to be a better person people consistently belittle you and no matter what you do or how you act, they still believe you are the worst version of yourself when they haven't seen a GLIMPSE of that version of you. after all the name calling and insults, i still said nothing of ill intent to anyone and even though i think worse things now, it doesnt matter bc they are no longer in the picture :3 but no matter what, even if everyone is against you, you will have people who will ultimately choose ur side over anyone else and i guess thats what matters most, because as long as you have that reliable person, nothing else matters.
June 11th 2026 ⚠ .𖥔݁ ˖
idk it's just my period causing my emotions to be so damn wonky but the feeling of living life is just overwhelming lately. i don't know what im doing wrong, i don't know if im just stuck or if i'm doomed. i think i have a good plan for the future but it really only works out of the other parties involved are cooperative or not, and if they aren't then i have NOTHING else to fall back on. i could continue with the same goals i've had since highschool but those seem dumb now. i'm not interested in psych as much, i don't want to work healthcare anymore. i really think that if i had a partner, someone to call my LOVE and actually have it be safe and pure and mutual, then MAYBE just MAYBEEEE i could figure out what to do with myself. but that sounds so stupid....NEEDING another human being in order to function for yourself. that sounds so toxic or cringe. im not trying to be cringe, i just really think if i had that loving emotional support system, i could do anything i set my mind to. and its so hard to keep going without that support. i tell myself i don't need someone to just be there, i can support myself and do my own things but its just EASIER if i have someone i can cling to, or someone i can vent to and be told sweet things to calm me down and actually mean it, actually saying it with love, yanno? my head hurts now...
June 4th 2026 ⚠ .𖥔݁ ˖
isn't it kinda frustrating how nothing really changes? i mean you can grow up, you can eat different, you can talk to different people but deep down you'll always be the same. and that saying of "people don't change" im kinda starting to believe it more and more but i dont WANT to, i've studied psychology for like 5 years and yet i still find myself falling into the same traps and same routines that i would constantly tell people to AVOID. idk im sick of it all and hopefully i can avoid people all together and just stay on my cute little website i made.
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"every pixel holds a piece of me, scattered in your memory."
ִֶָ. ..𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ🪽་༘࿐
